rescind

my cute little love.

still walking around with your bass,
practicing your drums?
pondering on your meals,
spicing up your life with tom yam.
making people happy with your wittiness,
amplify your knowledge on music like the amplifier.
drinking enough water?
in this killer weather.

i so miss you here,
this distance is slaughtering me.
my sense slipped away last few weeks because of dependence,
but i'm slowly picking up the pieces.
to re-construct myself,
as the girl i've always been.
the girl that you once think about,
cared and doted.
i will not lose myself just because you are not by my side,
that will disappoint you.
i detest failing myself,
that's the fastest way to lose my confidence.

i still remember the time i met you in my house,
that personality.
i want that ,me, back,
to make you gleam again.






yc

cuddle

you're a creepy creature,
bringing with you the power of love.
crept into my heart,
stole every single space in it.
leaving me empty,
you imposed the serenity of yearn into my brain.
you make me soak myself in a tub of vinegar,
sometimes,you sprinkle salt on my wounded emotion.

you're awful,
but there's nothing i can do to help myself.
you have turned me into,
an emotional freak.
embodied within me is fervor,
like salt & pepper,
i want to shake my flakes of well-being and affection on you,
the sunny side up.

this creepy creature,
named love.





yc

blinking everyday

a standard day.

dress for you,
eat for you.
think about you,
listening to songs that relates to you.
daydreaming, imagining you were currently by my side,
practice smiling to the mirror as if it is you.
filter appointments, thinking if you'll like it.
rejecting courtship, my heart considered taken by you.

yesterday,a friend asked me.
if i really love you,
i cant reply,because whether yes or no,
i'll still get hurt.
curiosity, i asked him,
god,what made him conclude that.
he told me, out of 10 sentence & 3 topics,
you were spoken by my lips, 8 times, non-stop relation.

then,i was slapped awake.
indeed, every little thing i do,
i can always, some how , chain you into my thoughts.
a sip of coffee,your headache with caffeine.
a slice of bread,are u awaken?does your fridge have enough food?
an encounter, with people,animals,
instruments,everything new.
i cant wait to share my experience with you,
an exchange of views.
every single music i hear,
i easily locate the sound of the bass behind.
making sure i track the sound of bass down,an influence by you.
be it depressed or happy,
busy or free.
you talking to me,
or abandon me on msn.
fluttered,because,
i don't understand why you're constantly on my mind.
remember,
we only spent minimal time together.
so time really isn't eveything,
you don't need abundant of time to fall head over heels for someone.
its the perfect moment,
that creates the magical experience.

indeed,i'm worrying.
my emotions have travel far,
out of my grasp.






yc

habit

I know we're moving on with our own lives right now but whatever it takes,
whenever,
wherever and whatever will be,no matter what,
you'll still be a part of whatever I'll be.
because when you fall for someone,
you incorporate a new concept of lifestyle.
this lifestyle will ,then, turn into a habit,
and once a habit,its hard to kick.
humans can change their bad habits,
but what you left me is habits that bring a hint of sweetness.
no way, am i going to curb this habit.
its the same for me from you,
you from her.
its okay,all these is what we claim as life experiences,
without these moments in life,
life would never be worth living.
and we'll miss out on the most powerful and beautiful thing god has created,
i believe the intimidation sparkle the creation.
and now,
i'm feeling a satisfaction.
the smallest thing that makes the dynamite blossoms the prettiest smoke.

i am beginning to love my life this way,
thanks for enlightening me.

i miss you so.



yc

occurance

chubby creased face.


yc

appeased

all my troubles just melt away,
because you were here to bear my grumble.

isn't it wonderful how you make me appeased,
because i woe of the fact that my problems would dampen your day.
so,i sort out my thoughts.
i will be happy,
because you are still by my side.

living life my way,
but for you.

i'm happier.



yc

我爱的人

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等

他做了他觉得对的选择

我只好祝福他真的对了

爱不到我最想要爱的人

谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人

他心里每一寸都属于另一个人

他真幸福幸福得真残忍

让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人他已有了爱人

从他们的眼神说明了我不可能


每当听见他或他说「我们」


就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声





yc

很想你 -- 张智成

你在哪里?这些年来如意不如意?
还快乐?还单纯?还美丽?
时光如何对你?
我在这里人海中的一座岛屿
很平静风平浪静
只除了深夜里回忆会疯狂来袭

我很想你你知道吗

如果可以就让我再见你

美好微笑清澈眼睛

好确定那持离只毁了我一个而已



我很想你听见了吗?

这是唯一我无解的困境

那些过去不肯过去

不管我后来遇见多少人

只能叹息


都不是你
我只想爱你
我在哪里?你会不会偶尔好奇?
有没有曾经怀疑?
我说我会忘记只是种好意








yc

Y+O+U

i'm living life daily for you,
but i'm not really with you.

although i'm sharing you,
but i'm still happy,because know i still have you.

sometimes its not all about you,
yet randomly its because of you.

i smile,thanks to you.
i frown,because i couldn't get you.

i laugh,because sometimes i scare you.
i excite, surprises from you.

reactions, i love to get it from you.
attentions, i try not to ask from you.


to dress well,live well,eat less.
for you.

my brain,its all you.
hellish situation, transformed into heaven,
done by you.

you,you,you.

love for the frequency and thump of bass.






yc

attempt

'God determines who walks into your life.It is up to you to decide who you let to walk away,who you let to stay, and who you refuse to let go.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience.
It'll NEVER just happen to you.
You can't 'find' LASTING love.
You have to 'make' it day in and day out.
That's why we have the expression 'the labor of love.'
Because it takes time, effort, and energy.
And most importantly, it takes WISDOM.
You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your relationship work.

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN A RELATIONSHIP IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON;
IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

People in love sometimes say, 'I was swept off my feet.'
Think about the imagery of that expression.
It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened
TO YOU.

Falling in love wasn't hard.
In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything. T
hat's why it's called 'falling' in love...
Because it's happening TO YOU.


(an article extract)



yc

macrocosm

nature has a way to relax our soul,
and you have a way with me.
i don't know what is wrong with me,
you never intentionally portray yourself.
simple you,
but amazingly powerful.

kudos.



love,
yc

after rain

life like a rainbow.
darling,
you're like a rainbow to me.
appearing once in a while,
with a white array of colors.
various tones,
different length,
disparity in sizes.
always providing me with new surprises,
making my smile vary.
rainbow after the rain,
you never fail to cheer my tough day.
every time when i'm angry with you,
you can always appease me easily.
just like the rainbow cheering wet lands farmers,drenched kids.

natural as a rainbow you are,
flawless in my heart.
always bright up my day.







yc

smokescreen

abandoned,
in this love circle.
everyone has their entitlement,
and mine's fall on another area which i haven't located.

the place i wanted to plant myself,
its the distant heart of your's.

well,
let me wander.
one day,
i'll drop this idea.





yc

在你眼里(地下铁片尾曲)--- 同恩

没有风云以为自己可以慢慢移动
没有你我以为世界照常转动
直到光照不进我那半隐居的窗口
直到爱叫醒我隐藏起来的脆弱
其实我爱着你
只是我骗自己
我要的世界
原来在你眼里
其实我抗拒你
却找到更多的证明
那乾了的泪
原来在你眼里

转了弯河以为就能找到那面大海
走的远我以为只有这双脚会酸
直到雨告诉我一个人撑伞的孤单
直到爱推倒了在我面前的勇敢
其实我爱着你
只是我骗自己
我要的世界
倒映在你眼里
其实我抗拒你
却找到更多的证明
那乾了的泪
原来在你眼里

爱着你
我懂了不再骗自己
那明天的我
正在等你相遇








love,
yc

不结

看着婚礼落泪的人，
心是痛的。

手是冷的，
头是晕的。
胃口是差的，
眼睛是蒙的。

好累，好累。
评断不清的关系，
不听话的心。
我被爱情搞得乱七八糟，
矢去微笑。

时间过的很快，
我已经不再拥有你了。
你把我放了，
也同时把我杀了。
习惯想你的我，
突然不知道该怎么办。
生活又重新开始，
温暖的阳光变的刺眼。
咖啡淡的无味，
从今的每一天要怎么开始。

我问自己很多问题，
一个都会答不了。


"How deep is an ocean
How far is that distant star
How strong's my devotion
What's more real than love in life
I don't need all the treasures
I want to burry all my pride
It's a precious gift it's freedom
Transmission into your heart"

i'm lost there...

"transmission into your heart"




yc

parallel

when you’ve been very much in love with someone,
you can’t really be friends after it falls apart.
because it hurts to see each other and recall that you did your best but still it didn’t last.

understanding,
and never in life should i commit the same crime.
of killing another friendship,
of losing you.
when two hearts are meant to be,
no matter how long it takes,
no matter how far they go,
no matter how tough it seems.
Fate will bring them together,
to share a life forever.

belief,believe.

people always say past is past.
we need to move on,
to see the future.
but how can one move on when the past is the only thing they ever wanted in the future,
dreading is a breathing pain.








yc

butchery

its easy to know how much you're worth,
from people's reaction to you.

and i can sense and see it,
very straightforwardly from you.

i know,
i do know everything.
but i'm still willing,
hopefully one day,
when you're happy or sad,
its me you think about.

hopefully this outraged love,can persist till then.

god bless you.





yc

circus

love is intimidating!,crazy...
flipping me in circles,hurting me.
scars everywhere,
i hope i'm not giving up.
like all emotional reality stars,
diminishing,blocking all possibilities.
i'm not a gymnast,
i'm not flexible.

but i'm definitely not lucky enough.
like a stone i'm always being treated,
not a jewel in love's eye.

god bless you.



yc

enervate

sometimes i really hate myself,
the surface of my impair.
chasing away my confidence,
this minimal that i consist.
it keeps me sailing,
fighting against all tough weather.
weight,body,appearance,life,
to compare,its scary.
yet i couldn't control this intrusion.
do you know,
part of me has been ripped by you.
constant sprinkling of salt to on my wound,
thank you.
i'm a failure,
my self-healing power is low.
self-satisfaction,
randomly bother you,
its all i can do.

if you bother reading my words of hog,
gratification.
if you don't even bother,
i have no complain.

god bless.





yc

consternation

i have frozen my tear to stop it from falling,
for pretending not to be hurt about something.
no one can stop my heart from bleeding,
but I know you can give me your's to keep me living.
too demanding,
this isn't how things should work.
if i take your heart away,
maybe someone else somewhere will be in the same plight as me.
worse,
this organ is already taken,and still not vacant.

my very tired eyes,
i need a nap.
a halt to my strained brain,
that has filtered too much thoughts.
staring blankly,
eyes with options.




yc

refute

sometimes, love takes us by surprise.
and one day you’ll find someone who’ll sweep you of your feet.
someone who just seem so impossible to even notice,
Someone who’ll love you truly ,then set you free.
even so, love will take you by chance again.
and make both of us strangers in love.

when i love, i thought i would never get tired.
i presume it would never end,
but sometimes, i need to be realistic.
i am tired, and exhaustion made me realize that love too can end.
especially if it wasn't meant to be.

when i think about you,i truly care.
i don’t look for faults, don't look for mistakes.
instead i tend to fight for your mistakes,
expect the faults and overlook the excuses.
everyday I try to walk towards you,
hoping that I’d somehow get to be with u, for at least a moment.
but you have to know its hard for me to catch up with you if you’re also trying to catch up with someone else.

layering thoughts,
my wordings has turned simple.
i want to simplify my complex emotions,
and only to simply write out my thoughts,
can i ease the load of rainy day.
vast blue sky,
little clouds to chase away the killing frown i hold.





yc

IT down

i don't need a mobile phone,
because,unlike others,u never contact me via that way.

this is why it doesn't matter.
i don't care.




yc

friendship

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."

*Anais Nin *
_________________________________________________________

"True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost."

*Charles Caleb Colton *

________________________________________________________

"Everyone is a friend, until they prove otherwise."

*Steve *

_______________________________________________________

"It takes a long time to grow an old friend."

*John Leonard (thanks to Steve's Famous Quotes) *

________________________________________________________

"Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather is one of those things that give value to survival."

* C. S. Lewis *

_____________________________________________________________

"Friends are the most important ingredient in this recipe of life."

*Dior Yamasaki*

__________________________________________________________

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."

*Mother Teresa *

___________________________________________________________

"a friend is like the recycle bin,it takes in your unwanted woes,worries,problems,store for a few days,and delete it for you.making your system smoother"

*Y.C*
__________________________________________________________




yc

comprehend

love is wanting someone to be happy,
even if you’re not part of that happiness.
if making him happy means letting go, do so.
you may feel like hell, at least he's in heaven.

you may never get over the pain.
but you can learn to get along with it and live.
love don't hurt,but the absence does.

remember,
I love you, not only for what you are,
but for what I am when I am with you.


yc

immoderate

I smoke, I drink,
I go home late.
I have my social life, I flirt, I curse.
I tatt, I give them a fright.
i may be rebellious,
but at least I know there’s still one good thing about me,
I love deeply.

you were the one who accidentally hurt me,
i know you have made it clear,
i don't care.
even till now,
you are still someone who can slit my throat,
and with my last breath,
I’d still apologize for bleeding on your shirt.
For you, I can.
you don’t have to be perfect to let somebody love you,
or the way you wanted to be loved.
remember, that being simple is the most perfect way to make someone fall in love with you.
and in love am i with your simplicity.

i find it easy to fall in love,
but difficult to keep u forever.
now,the challenge of cupid's arrow,
fighting without knowing how to win.
a handicapped match.





yc

fragments

if you are everything to everyone,
then you are nothing to yourself.
and never be upset when you find yourself in the valleys of fallen love,
for in there,
lies all the nutrients for growth.

never let someone make you feel stupid.
rather, make that someone feel stupid for letting the only one like you go.
when I know things are not meant for me, I learn to let go.
it doesn’t mean I’m weak,
i’m just showing how strong I am,
to fight the urge of wanting something.
something ,i know ,not supposed to have.
in the rules of love,i never expect, just hope.
maybe i should never fall for a friend,
but then,there aren’t any rules when it comes to love.
whenever I watch romantic movies,
witness people kiss and make up.
or listen to a love song,people sing along,hands clenched.
i smile and feel good,
because I know that love still works.
if not for me, at least for others.

every time i thought i found the right guy,
and contributed,in my opinion, perfect love.
i thought it was the right time,
i thought everything was perfect.
except for one thing, for him,
i wasn’t the perfect girl and I wasn’t even close to being the right one.

if there are days when you might feel that I don’t remember you.
don't fret or even wonder,
because what you don’t know is,
all those times, I was the one waiting for you to remember me.
for extending my worth.

please,promise me,
the moment you find someone that makes your heart flog.
stop the search and take the risk,
remember that the world is a big place.
when you lose the one you love,
you have to search the whole world again.

may god bless you.



yc

plausible

i should leave u alone...ain't it?
i'm so tired,everything is not working.
can i abandon the smiles that i can expect?
how busy is busy,willing to solve this sum for me?
no..
i promise myself i'll solve everything myself.

loss for words.

its only temporary,till i find the strength again.


courage.





yc

meek

viewing your nick,
not flicking,but on my toolbar.
desperately waiting for a pinch of your information,
questioning myself.
no replies,
i dwell in pessimism.
kept telling myself that i told you before i don't expect anything from you,
nor will i want myself to do things that will make you feel uncomfortable.
but crawling low,
am my self esteem.

i have labeled myself the ultimate loser,
someone who voice out anything,but not to you.
condemned,
you're in custody of my mood.

how did your life pass thesedays,
what sent you smiling?
what did you do again sending people laughing?
any weird things happen when you're playing the bass?
are you taking your meals on time?
there are so many things i want to know,
and there are so many experiences i had that i want to share with you.

never mind,
i am in no privilege to intrude into your life.
'i' have to accomodate,
learn...i have to.





yc

pap

thank you daddy,
for making my day everyday.
you're umbrella for every weather,
even when it rains,i can smile.
because i know,far away,
you're doing fine.
i love you,
may god bless you at all times.



yc

drifting

please,
don't let this feeling stop.
i know its a dream,
i'm deceiving myself.
its a beautiful dream,
just to be lying beside you...
on this special evening,
when the lights are dimming.
when streets are sleeping,
when the angels wander.

they were kind, to drop by,
by my side,they smile.
for they sense my gratitude,
to them.
in the hug i love,
slowly,i, shall sleep.
into la~la~ land,
i don't wanna waste a wink,
a time..u hold me tight,once in a while.
the time earth stood still,in a long long while.

slowly,the sun will rise.
the darkness fade,my heart sank,itz a brand new day.
my day like no others,i keep my words swallowed.
my cravings at bay, pondering.

please,
let my feebleness leaks.
back to the starting,jog to the finishing.
i believe,one day.
you will relish the sweetness of my love,
and lead life as the happiest man.
the bedazzled guy,my charmed one.





yc

split & splat

whimpering,
by the window.
its raining outside,
the droplets hitting towards me,
but blocked by this diaphanous glass.
life is getting ridiculous for me,
too much conflictions.
i believe this is yet another one of my experience again,
nothing will be brought to my future.
i will never get to be your burden,
your reason to go home.

i conceive, when, the rain stops,
will this water wash away my unhappiness?
tone down this swayed tinkling,
i'm lost now...
never to be found, or picked up by you.







yc

snivel

lonely,
trying.
hurting,
ignored.
accepting,
choking.
confusing,
gasping.
lying,
believing.
contradicting,
shivering.
wondering,
slapping.
aching,
breathing.
running,
sweating.

my life is swirling,
emotions pouring.

what am i?what can i do...
if only you'll tell me everything.




yc

hasten

if only my loneliness can evaporate like water above heat.

i have given up drawing circles on my notebook,
looking into the sunrise.
the flicker of lights,
the wakens getting ready for a hectic day,probably.
i sat down,
watching the sun set.
watch the city die slowly,hour by hour.

watching the leaves flow away with the breeze,
i talked to them...in my heart.
to carry my blessings to you,
help me look after you,shower safety onto you.

further and further u float like pollens,
preparing something dazzling for your life.
my color pencils,
held in my hand.
but i hardly strike a stroke,
my mentality is congested.

i cant do anything now,
nothing.






yc

complaisant

if i don't ask,
i was hoping you'll tell.
but even if you don't tell,
nor will i bother you with any demands.

i don't know how,or why.
i am frustrated with answers provided by others,
searched by myself.
this acknowledgment makes me feel like an outsider,
or i am, actually...

indeed.




yc