你就这样消失了

女：＂喂～，发生了么？，你就这样消失了。。。＂
＂click，du。。。du。。。＂
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今天， 我不小心又回到我们开心，互笑的地方。
我们的爱情，让我空虚
我没有勇气，只好闭上眼睛
放弃窗外的风景

你突然离去
不做解释
留我在原地
自私的决定

重回和你做过的一切
去过的地方
想起你说过的话
逗过的言
是那样的讽刺
我只能傻笑
因为那是最后一次

你就这样走了。。。
这样离开
好不真实
在最开心的时候
你就这样消失了

啊。。。啊。。。。

你突然离去
不做解释
留我在原地

自私。。的决定！

我们的爱情，让我空虚。
我真的没有勇气，
只好闭上眼睛

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女：＂你不解释，我永远都不知道发生了么。跟着我就会胡思乱想，因为我没有选择。你就这样消失了，在我不知觉的时候。＂





yc

i will never forget the fact that you were the one that let loose of my hand,
as i desperately try to grasp.
something i thought known as happiness,
but bitter like evil.

you're sly like the snake,
you poison me and sleek away.

you don't deserve my tugs and hugs.
for you don't cherish and still say what.
my mind is boggled and clarified,
you're a jerk,
please stay clear.

i know,
i will cry alone.
for many times i have done that,
it don't bother me.

but i will remember,
forever remember.

this very moment where you let go of my heart,
you abuse my trust.
you selfishly fall in love in a flash,
you tarnished my hard build confidence.

i will always,
bitterly remember.
this moment,
where you let go of my hands.
you let go of me.



yc

抹

我的眼睛
真的看不清
么叫爱情

失败太多次
丢了太多的信任
遗失太多的信心

看不见的东西
是最恐怖的
对它的来临
豪不保留的接纳
从不怀疑

一直以为你的好很美丽
你是我画里的彩色

没想到
彩色过期了
跟着的是我的画也坏了

你颠覆了我的生活
现在又想让我自己规律回去
我仿佛做了个梦
现在的苏醒
飘飘然然的
失去重心

我因为信任
给了你爱情

我的眼睛
真的看不清
么叫爱情了

失败太多次
丢了太多的信任
遗失太多的信心

我要用多少时间才能把它们检回来呢
才好不容易累积的
又被你泼出去
你根本不懂那是这么样的颤抖

失败太多次
丢了太多的信任
遗失太多的信心

我的眼睛
真的看不清
么叫爱情了


yc

A Beautiful Life By David Isaacs

Got yourself a ticket to the rest of your life
So starting here and now, find the strength somehow to spread your wings and fly
And who could ask for more than this precious time
With you at my side on this rollercoaster ride, the one thing I know for sure is that

Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Yes it is

Everyday's a new start so give it a try
When all of your predictions, your loves and your commitments
Keep watching the time pass by
And who could ask for more than another chance
You get one everyday, so start and lead the way
Step through another door singing. . .

Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Yes it is

These days I'm lost in the beauty of life
So I'm singing. . .

Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Na Na Na, what a beautiful life
Yes it is

Na Na Na, what a beautiful life
Na Na Na, what a beautiful life
Yes it is.



(Thank you to this song..for awakening me from my heart ache)

love,
yc

the weakening body

i just felt like the most pathetic soul on this planet.

because i love you,
and i thought you love me too.
but when i sent you a msg telling you i was sick...
and you chose to ignore.

am i so insignificant?
why are you doing these?.

have you met someone at work that has surpassed me?
where is all the dotes you promised me?.
why are you retracting all the love you gave me before.

there must have been some misunderstanding,
but why won't you communicate with me.
just make a little effort,
to let me know will do.

you can't just kick me out of the picture,
with no instructions.
you left me encircled in a world of riddles which i cant solve.
what happened?

i am not a strong girl,you have to acknowledge.
why are you doing this?

i never expect this treatment to come from you...
really,
i...am....speechless.
with a heavy heart filled with too many "don't knows".

you really caught me off-guard this time.

how can you not even ask how am i,
knowing i'm sick.
how can you be this cold....
it sends chill down my spine.
my body is weakening...
will you,
tell me?
what exactly is going on.

at least i know,
and i won't expect anything from you.
i promise...

i'm better off dead.





yc

footprints

there will never be a second chance.
the turmoil will be over,
so please dont pull me into your closet of selfishness again.

i lack the courage,
to do it all over again.
to follow your mild steps,
head held low.
and i couldn't see in clarity,
its all the prints i tried to track.

its not as easy as i thought.
one day the rain will fall,
the wind will blow.
so what is left of me...
standing on a muddy pathway,
losing sight of you.

fear sets in,
i need to conquer it, alone.
i dont dare to shout out to you,
i lack the courage...
because u seem to be going for something,
which i'm reluctant to see.

as though i've lost my voice...
my tongue is numbed.

as a tear drop leaks out of my strong-held eyes,
flashes of heart aches came.
every single negligence...every single hours of waiting.

in the middle of this pathway,
you setted me up to free...
all over.

in the middle of this muddy pathway,
should i walk towards you...
or should i return alone.






yc

sorrow painter

days of thinking,
conversing my thoughts.
set it straight,
against my will.

i am laundered.
my soul is empty,
my hope is diminished.
my wish is demolished,
my mind is polished.
my will is punished,
my actions were childish.

my art is angered,
my hand trembled.
my paintbrush is withered,
paint scattered.
heart shattered.

unfair,
how come i kept falling into the same plight.
unfair,
why i cant cry.
unfair,
why i cant find.
unfair,
why...am..i.

drawn into withdrawal,
fainting spells.
truth befall,
my fantasy tumbled.




yc

when a man love a woman

when a man loves a woman,
his heart is with her.
their moment of separate,
will trigger his fingers.

when a man loves a woman,
he feel for her.
he understands her pain from his willful actions,
he will try to change.

when a man loves a woman,
he cares for her.
he will want to know,
how the women goes.
any woes,
he'll be there to hold.

when a man loves a woman,
he will source.
what can make his love happy,
what can make her smile.

when a man loves a woman,
he digs out her pain.
he will heal,
and swear not to peel.

when a man loves a woman,
he will show.
show her his heart,
show her his words.

but when a man only needs the woman...
he won't do all the above.

he decipher its just a companion,
a sexual accomplishment.
and the men will never let go...till he meets the one.

and tell me,
what will happen to the women?...
too sorrowful,
she may die.

but a women ain't dumb,
if she chose you despite all your inconsideration...

then the men should try to listen to her heart,
read all her history with you...
before its too late,
when heart aches set.

man will change the woman's life..
end the life you first knew.

man put an end to the character of the girl that loves you,
and you set free a lowly soul...
a lonely soul...

every man will react the same way to the girl he loves,
please don't tell yourself you are an exception...
don't lie to yourself.




yc

how come you never know.

i really know,
you are busy.
but is it so hard?,
to just give me some tending.

i tried to wait,
but my faith fail.
i notice something,
i knew i shouldn't think.

you tell me to hold on,
but in love, you must know its hard.
you tell me you love me,
but it don't feel real.

i am grumpy,
when i miss you so.
but you are angry,
when i fret my will.

you chose silent,
i chose self deceive.
i captivate myself,
in your foreign world.
i deceive myself,
to live by you.

you're the failed magician,
i close my eye.
you dont see my tears,
because i always smile.

you dont care about my world,
i tell myself...
you're waiting for me to tell.

but when will you have the time to listen?
i try to never wonder.

i tried to tell,
to dissolve...
but you never allow.

and what can i do?
until u lost me.

until i leave...
unless i break...
i thi nk you will never know,
what is my priority.

plz do not armour me in the stage you want.
because i lie within,
a passionate & relying heart.

as i cried numerous,
i have came to wonder.
one more wrong decision,
shouldn't be a problem.

i am always wrong,
maybe i should stop the try,
to believe too much...



yc

Bloooosh..~

how amazing and immaculately crafted am the life of a human.
a moment,
you are on top of the world.
cheery with zero worries,
and suddenly you're dropped so low.
hopeless and desperately grasping a ray of light,
hoping it'll save your wander soul.

sunk into tiredness to want to feel the embrace of emotion,
sleep it through,caffeine it out.
so the head will not ponder on the dreadful thoughts.

yet,of all these,the most frightening part of all,
is to lose the felt of love,from your loves one,
even when you theoretically know,they still love you.

it is an upset of something,
bind to my body.
which i am unable locate,
and the wise would hate.

the,the feeling of leaving this world,
to put down the aching burden .

timidly,
i fear death.
but i still long for it,
when i am stress.

i felt so tiny,
like particles.




yc

disappear

I'm not just throwing an unreasonable tantrum.
i just want some actions on your part.

I am tired of always waiting for you,
holding on to nothing.
I am tired to be angered then sweeten by your little actions which i love.
I have had enough...and i spell it.

I want to seclude myself away from your emotionless clutches.

To not be a puppet,
waiting for you to hold me up and manipulate.
To not be a mannequin,
waiting for your attention.
To not feel anticipation,
so as not to let you fail me.

Thus, i am leaving you alone for a while.
If you understand,
you will pardon my actions.

If, I am, as you claimed.
If, I, do stand a space in your heart.
Then, search...search for the trail of bleeding heart.
the flood of tear flow.
high & low, and i doubt you will.
for me,will you?

If all is just to much a chore for you,
then i am a pathetic girl.
Taking up too much of your time,
and you are just too much of a saint to turn me down.

Many loves,
and may i be blessed with your love.






yc