Making Love.contaminated

love and sex.
shouldn't they be together?.

but why,why did men have to abuse it.
how can they spend a brief moment with a girl,
and make love to her.

how did their mental work?,
why can't they ever understand.

its really heartbreaking for a girl,
to know that despite her wise wisdom,
its her body that marks her value and worth.

all her intellectual,
just went down the drain.
all the books she's read,
all the education she's had.

alcohol is a friend,
and also a foe.
makes some reality clearer,
and makes belief muffler.

the waking morning,
the bright and beautiful sun.
the hopeful morning,
tainted with the aftermath of depressed assumption.

look into the mirror,
the face of confusion.
the weak heart beats,
the soulless eyes.

what can she do.
as she will forever be bathed in reality.
she can't audit the world,
stop the ticking seconds.

what an evening have done,
light up...and tell herself.










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bruised.

upon questions most sincerest from my heart,
you took it lightly.
if everything were a joke,
then probably you would have been the happiest.

Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some
of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

i'm in a dilemma,
which of this sentences is talking about you?
which is implementing me?

my heart,
beating so furiously.
my breathing,
so congested.

all these mental torture,
you are certainly ruthless.

i am beyond defense,
i did not start out with a shield.

i did not start out with a motive,
but for the simple liking.



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quotes.

I'm jealous of everyone you've ever been with because when they held you they were holding my entire world.

To be in love is like jumping off a cliff with no intent on looking down at the bottom. You don't care its going to hurt like hell when u hit the bottom, all you care about is that for just for that short period of time...you felt like you could fly.

Love is like a maze; easily lost and hard to find.

Love is the closest thing we have to magic.

Love is like war. Easy to start, hard to end, and impossible to forget.

Love is like fire. Sometimes it goes out.





quotes from them,
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Cherish

Duty makes us do things well - love makes us do them beautifully.

Everything runs smoothly when love oils the machinery.

Love builds.

Love does not keep a ledger of the failures of others.

Love expands.

Love is a little word; people make it big.

Love is sharing a part of your self with others.

Love is the fairest flower that blooms in God’s garden.

Love never stops shining.

Love your life enough to change.

Money can build a house, but it takes love to make it a home.

True love doesn’t consist of holding hands - it consists of holding hearts.

We "owe" each other love.

When responding to love, our abilities manifest.

You can give without loving, but you can’t love without giving.






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the last.

when your're dead.
all will be fogiven.

your wrong decision,
wrong people.
debts,
unhappiness.
your soul will be released,
you wont torment yourself.
people will start to cherish you,
you will be in heaven.

life won't hurt you again,
people won't ignore you again.
you look back and will find life wonderful again,
you dont ponder about the bleak future.

you will be bounded by darkness,
with no sight.
no speech,
no options.

death is so beautiful.
and i dont see why not.




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just a second will do.

now,
i can only console myself.
even just for a moment,
i have the chance to become your angel.
even if its for a moment,
to you,i am special.
i think,
i should smile,for even how tough things get,
you did consider me as the special little one before.

i don't really know if that's true,
but i hold confidence in myself,
that i have been one,at least for a minor second.

thus,everything i have done for you is not wasted.
at the very least.



yc

Corrine Bailey Rae - I'd do it all again

Ooh, you're searching for something I know, wont make you happy
Ooh, you're thirsting for something I know, wont make you happy
Ooh, you did it all again, you broke another skin

Its hard to believe this time, hard to believe
That my heart, my hearts an open door... See More
You got all you came for, baby
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your prides worth
Is bigger than the pain you got for it hurts
And out runs all of the sadness
Its terrifying, life, through the darkness
And Id do it all again, Id do it all again
Id do it all again, Id do it all again
You try sometimes but it wont stop
You got my heart and my heads lost, ooh yeah
Ive been burning down these candles for love, for love
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your pride
Ooh, someone to love, mm, someone to love
Someone to love
Ooh, youre searching for something I know, wont make you happy
Ooh





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one sided

people always claims,
when a relationship have no trust,
it will not propagate.

and that is what i believe too,
until this exact moment with you.
i found out that love.isn't all just about trust.

its also about care,
and attention.

attention to details,
attention to movements.
attention to rhythms,
attention to efforts.

to care,
is to know more.
ask more,
give more.
address more,
read into more.

and with love,
you will tend to want more.
isn't it?

a lone girl,
will never suffice to contemplating too much.
because,
its too hard.

if everything is you,
she will slowly tire out.
and collapse,
mentally.

the heart will burn,
then she will turn.
the flaming heat,
will melt her out.

yes,she is falling in love.
but she is,also, not in love.

she just wants more attention,
and apparently,its hard to get.




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Mixture

as water splashes into my face,
and water dropping away.

i became lost,
in the pairing of tear drops & rain.

disappointment,
in myself,the heart.
my heart.
the lonely heart,
the proud heart.
the feigning heart,
the corrupted heart.
the thumping heart,
the desperate heart.

as people grow wiser with age,
me am too.
nevertheless,
as i have growth to become smarter.
my egoistic advances too.
i always thought i knew,
always assume that we hold common mentality.
but i was terribly wrong,
how could I.

okay, wrong man.
another wrong love.

and,
why cant they just love me?






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Brim Rage

the unfairness in life,
is ever so present.
this moment of depress,
is ever so feelable.

the juggle,
the struggle.
my passion,my belief.
my hopes, my view.
my holding, my posessions.

what is going to happen to me.
will i be loved?
will i be appreciated?
will my talents be soughted for.
will my future be bleak.

what will happen to me if i were to be forced to succumb to the reality of life,
the roll of money.
to do things not because i like to,i wanted to.
but what i must do, have to do.
how much longer should i hold this fort,
to wait & wait.
to constantly tell myself to be patient,
to believe that if i believe and it will happen.

my ambition,
my dream.

is life going to be kind one me.




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Sky

as i hear her stroy,
i reviewed mine.

to find similarities,
to find scare.

we have embounded our partners,
with freedom so enormous like the sky.
that we,ourselves, got lost in the process.
like the clouds,stagnent we stay.
keeps raining like tear drops,
resolving us.
and to our own ability,
we form again.
to cater to the bird constantly flapping its wings,
amongst beautiful forms of cloud.

nothing can be done,
for the way we love them.
we have submitted to the negative law of love,
because we just want them in our lives.
to see,to feel.
just the thought makes us smile,
just the thought makes us fret.

awful choices,
but we chose.
if only men can make smart choices,
and dont be greedy.

if only we were strong and flexible,
like the wind.
making some impact on the wild bird's wings,
giving this wild animal something to fight against .
to fight for something we long dread to happen,
the chance to merge and present the beautiful picture.

its raining again,
someone is tearing.





yc

infirm

facing the truth.
is hard.

not accepting it,
and live in another visual world is harder.

hate love,
hate life.

hate everything that is making me tear.
hate everything that is weakening me.

uncompromisable.
the debilitated soul.

yes,hold one,
and all will be fine.

my heart...so inflicted.
looking for the original innocence.
as a little girl.
i bow.




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mental

what happens to a girl,single for too long.
she ponders and risk everything,
to fetch her a cup of love essence.

but the longing have led her decisions to wreckage,
as she continuously trial,and heart break.

god knows what is wrong with her,
and she quarrels, where is the luck god suppose to dispense her.

all these waiting is creating nonsensical little nothings in her.

the greatest poems comes from the greatest heartache.
true.

god created love.
the most powerful feeling human have ever possessed.

love,
the root of envy,jealousy,insomnia, anger,depress,self hurt,doubt,abuse,fight...
so many more.
she is on the down side,there is no positive thinking.

where are you...
how long should the wait be.
there is no sight,
just sigh.
and it never ends,
that's the fretting part.




yc

Could you please

all i need,
is more of your attention.

dearest,my heartfelt words.

i wish you will hold my hand in public,
flaunt me as i exudes the proud with you.
to hug me in public,
as i always love to do.
to introduce me to your friends,
as i yearn to know.
to publicize our love,
as i wanted to.
to make an effort in consoling my lonely soul,
as i tried to accomplish.
to check on me,
as i waited.

but you did none.
that sets my heart flickering.
that sets the questionnaire to my belief,
weakens my spirits.

i understand, and will comply.
but can you please,
just give me more attention.

for all the riaks and efforts i have thrown in,
i am unwilling to admit to another faulty choice.

dearest, could you please.....
just give me more attention.





yc

impeach

for all the efforts made,
stories told.
abandoning friendship.
she has no regrets,
she just need a glance of you.

a simple communication will make her day.

as she sell herself to the world,
submerge in spirits and alcohol.
please dont judge her character,
dont take her for granted.

she is just trying to buck up her courage,
to get closer to you.
there is this simple reason living,
amongst her thoughts.

she is not being easy,
just to get your attention,
queasy.
when you walk away...
there goes her sparks.

she tells herself,
to faithing in patience.
slowly, pieces of this beautiful puzzle will sum up.
if only waiting works,
that would have given her more assurance.

what is she to you?
a prostitute?
a substitute?

what a stupid blunder.

if only you love her.



yc

seeing through

to remember,
always remember.
when all is drunk,
there will be one,
that is not.

organizing reality,
hoping all is true.

her senseless talks,
listened.
her bountiful kisses,
glistened.
she is hoping for something,
imminal, but powerful.

the arms to embrace,
the sweet nothings of tinkling sensation.

she hopes,
she yearns.
requesting for this chance,
to lead her away of loneliness.
she fought against all odds,
she feign ignorance.
to succumb to the beatings of the heart,
exactly at this moment.

she loves you,
when she lean forward and plant her kiss.
the cohesion of the biggest sense.

truth, the hard way.
why do you want to fail her tonight,
she ponders.
is she not the right one,
is it wrong?.

men and all their lies,
just to prove that words are indeed cheap.

thus,
there is no LOVE in this situation.
its men and the combination of alcohol,
how very depressing.





yc

bonded by blood

i have a sister,
who loves me until everyone felt disgusted.
relentlessness , her give of love.
my gift of joy.

because she is around,
i am never afraid.
never scared of the world,
never scared of getting scarred by love over and over again.

my sister,
will do everything for me.
bless her soul,god.
i will be the littlest girl in front of her ,
the girl always hungry for her dote.

i become so small,
that now i know how big and enormous is her love.
like the great blue sea, great great sky.

she is so beautiful,
she dont know.
she is so dwelled up in giving,
that she neglected herself.

i want to thank her for all the great food she treated me,
all the great stuff she bought me.
all the great help she gave me,
all the great moments she shared with me.
all the great smiles she benevolent me,
all the great joy she bequeath me with.

lastly,
all the love she splash me with.

to the best sister on earth,
i oath to be with you forever.
till my next life,
i will still plead with god,
to pair us up again.
till that time,
i want to be the elder one.

to give back everything you gave me in this life,
but,10 times more.

I love you,
love you till death.







yc

Family

when a girl is at home,
she does not feign,no barriers,no defence.
which in most of the cases,
she react directly to every emotion that streams through her nerves.

the voice tone,the eye contact.
genuine and sharp,
hurting people that she loves most in the most natural way.
and i think that is why she always lands herself in momentary trouble.

i love my family,
i love my siblings.
and i'm apologetic if anything i do directly hurt anyone's feelings.

i always probe,
how come i have more patience for my friends than to my family when i know they will be there whenever whatever happens.

maybe that's the disection of the word, family.
when your're in this confortable zone without woes and worries.

you know there will be minimal consequence,
you deem as they will understand.
but you forgot the part where they,too, have a brain themselves that creates another set of thinking that may conflict with yours.

they care,
but if you don't allow the time to share.
all becomes worries,
that will inflict on you.
then you melt down your patience,which have been exploited by the society.

try to understand more,
read more, love more.

a sorry heals my family easily,
my smile warms them up.
and that is how easy a way to resolve,
and it only happens to your family members.
they don't talk behind your back,
they don't request for help that will benefit them.

they just love you,
as who you are.
and this love is not a burden,
its a gift from god.
treasure from well within.

never take it for granted,
because when their soul is tired.
you get affected too,
its a telepathy that only circles around the family.

i am blessed,and i know.





yc

interim

don't cry,
don't fret.

when you lose something important to you,
the universe will eventually return it to you, a million times prettier.
bear with time,
patience.

a fateful traffic accident starts with a speeding car,
never rush.
think amicably,
and slowly a beautiful scene will coagulate.
then,in front of you,will be a beautiful beginning.

and we must strongly believe in it.
thus the process would not be a turmoil.



yc

Drop a Bundle

i have tried my best,
and you fail to cherish me.
so,now i'm gone.
you shouldn't blame it on me.
you had a chance,but you threw it away.

when you wake up one day,
and felt any sense of remorse.
remember, you let loose the thread to happiness.

answer for your actions,
and feel the deep sense of ache.

how dumber can you be than this exact moment.
who never contributes to a beautiful relationship.

canned and pre-packed food always taste inferior to hands-on cooking,
understand?

Doubt so.





yc

Blue

Blue, is the color of the sky.
nature's so call ocean,
the connection to mellow mood.

Blue,
is also the term for a melt down spirit.

a far cry from each other,
closely knitted.

andrew fell for the wrong girl,
so his friends claims.

they have no idea why,
but they eventually succumb to their listens.
they felt that friends is more important,
they misunderstood their heart.

when we are down,
we tend to sought for things we don't have.
and end up to nil.

take blue light,
see life high.
be conscious,
greet with pride.

there were never failure,
if you fully enjoy the process.

the scorching sun burns the naked eye,
we should view ourself with more lens.
sober up.


black,
is the simplest of all.




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Loss, not to mourn

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.
From a headstone in Ireland

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When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
Kahlil Gibran

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Love here on earth
Love beyond the grave
There are no roads
My love for you can't pave.
T. Sachs

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He spake well who said that graves are the footprints of angels.
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

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A human life is a story told by God.
Hans Christian Andersen

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To live in hearts we leave behind
Is not to die.
Thomas Campbell

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We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey.
Kenji Miyazawa


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He who has gone, so we but cherish his memory, abides with us, more potent, nay, more present than the living man.
Antoine de Saint-Exupery

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Life is eternal, and love is immortal,
and death is only a horizon;
and a horizon is nothing save the limit of our sight.
Rossiter Worthington Raymond

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Oh heart, if one should say to you that the soul perishes like the body, answer that the flower withers, but the seed remains.
Kahlil Gibran

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It is the will of God and Nature that these mortal bodies be laid aside, when the soul is to enter into real life; 'tis rather an embrio state, a preparation for living; a man is not completely born until he be dead: Why then should we grieve that a new child is born among the immortals?
Benjamin Franklin, 22 February 1756







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Moment Like this. By Kelly Clarkson

What if I told you it was all meant to be
Would you believe me, would you agree
It's almost that feeling, we've met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you, love has come here and now

[chorus]
For a moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe its happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Everything changes but beauty remains
Something so tender, I can't explain
Well I may be dreaming, but till I awake
Can't we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share

[chorus]
A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe its happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Could this be the greatest love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this

Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Oh, like this
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Oh, like this



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Matters of the Heart

i dont want to get hurt,
ever again.

but...
i can't predict.
i can't deduce what is the right choice,
i can't see through anybody's mind.

i hate to bear the consequence of my opt,
yet i felt like its now time to love again.
petals wilt, down onto the floor.
weep, tears on the floor.

when is the vicious cycle going to end?
when is my frenzy jiggly mood going to cease.
when is it that i will stop anticipating love.

the toughest battle of all.
selections,uncertainty.
unconvincing,persuasive.

all the crap,
please fumes away as i smoke this cigarette.
keep my attention concentrated,
make me the grown and evolved.

oh,Lord.
see what trouble i have invited myself again.
tiredness,worn,instability.
should i ever believe in love again,
believe in trust.
where is your helping hands,
i need someone to hold me through.

worries of the heart.
life's uncertainty,
life's shortness.

life's loneliness,
the greatest and most intriguing power you have created.
is so wild,so powerful.
irresistible.







yc