Am i the person i thought i am?

All my time,
i spend it in feeling,
trying to capture a specific emotion.
Where i can write down and convey in words.
inspire myself,taking a new level in my life.
But too much worries lead me,normally to no where.
My fantasy pulls me away from reality.
And when the world of truth crashes in,
i hurt myself,fall and cry.
Wonder how long these days will last.
Walking forward each day,towards the destination of self discipline.\
Searching,ravaging.
just like trash not picked up,rotten will it be.
pest attracted,pestering me.
pesticide in need,massacre to occur or trouble will hog forever.
While all my poems will be infused with sadness and disclarity.


yc

so satisfied,i cried.

as i ponder over what to eat,
what to savour everyday.
there's a bunch of prople whom i don't see,
i don't know.
delightfully enjoying a cup of clean water,
munching what they deem as the best food they can get.
bread,rice,wheat,rye.
on this very moment.
i feel so fortunate,
my parents gives me shelter,food,
electrical appliances that enhance my life.
Why should i even feel depress on stages like this?
kids from africa live their days in laughter,
enjoying even juz the rain to drench them from clouds.
so satisfied they are,no complaining from them.
this moment,i look into the mirror.
the cutted wrist from not enough spending,
how stupid am i to envy others...
jealous non sensibly.
how pathethic is my soul now,i wonder.
this world i'm born in,everything is a line away.
mt thinking is switching in between.
i want to be better,
i want the people living tough to be enjoying meals more.
may god bless all of them.
ans bless my soul,scuplture it in a more beautiful ornament.

blessed children

ransacking through my inners soul.
i find no simplicity,
only complications.
trying very hard,to set things in place.
walking around,
i see many blessed souls.
they were born into this world,life in order.
no worries only laughter.
how i envy these little souls.
their life.
friends surround,
financially capable parents.
they spent their days havin their favourite food,
playing their favourite games.
education well planned.
how they fare in future?
needless to worry.
for all the love they grow up in,
nothing will go wrong.


yc

heart-rending

Should ever u have a regret.
shed the tears fo remorse.
move on,mend the hole that's hurting too much.
Any object to rake the memory,
never discard,savour the feelings it recovers.
Then,you will understand.
know how to move on.
Moving on to get what was left and deserted.
Bow down,lie low.
Accept the fact,
they may not hav forget.
apologise,see if they accept.
though all may not seem well.
but you have tried.
go forward,learn the lesson.
never give up.

yc

TIRAMISU

an apple a day keeps the doctor away,
to me, a tiramisu a day kicks my pessimistic away.
as the smooth moose melts in my mouth,
engulfing the entire.
the rum,the soaked biscuit,the coffee.
they rake my emotions.
truely sensatinal.
this is an addiction,hooking me up.
am hooked,i look forward to every mouthful i can gorge.
another joy in my dull and unorganised life.
Together with the gourmet coffee i insist in budget.
a great pair of of lovers,
shining at cupid,me.
now,i will not bow down to the life i want.
even if i'm self deluding myself.
will get through,i believe.
persevere on n i won't lose.
me to fate,fate to life.
things will change for the better.
My tiramisu will keep me happy forever.


yc