pulchritudinous

today i pray,
wishing strength will be by my side.
years have passed,
and again i return as a failure from the society.

behind this stubborness,
is ravishing thoughts.
those that were with me then,
bringing forward to now.
the thoughts of blissful life together,
the doting that will never deter.
vacations spent together,
hugs beyong the setting sun.
kisses that makes me blush.
your hand that makes me proud,
presence that makes me tear.

all so beautiful,
how can i let it go.
u hav enveloped me inside your world,
i need no triumph over solidarity.
3 years,
triple amount of pain.
incurable sickness,
i hav no antidote.

i cant afford to see you with her.
i'm...
a silly...
blockheaded girl,
that still lingers around your sweet nothings.

still demeaning the smile u love,
to the mirrors,
so you will never miss it when you see me.
set u in peace that i'm doin fine,
and u hav not ruined me.

reality forbiddened.
just for your smile and happiness.

assuage

when love disappear,
words dance around my head.
rocking me to and fro,
forcing me to understand the simplicity and not circle around possibilities.
why hang on to something that weren't meant for my pitiable soul,
grasping breathe that relaxes my tense nerves.

slowly,
i identify the satisfaction.
this aftermath,
assembling pieces of thoughts.
the recovery.

laughter so insincere,
not touching the basal of my triggered heart.
the rumbling heart,
this heart that has lost its space within someone's.
frolicking with the dew.
and settle as droplets of water,
slide down leaves to a crash.

splashed.






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