rays of...

the headlights of cars beaming,
the fluorescent lights of the town,
the colors of life.
my heart wants to beat like the wings of the birds.
sink into the night,
my restless soul.
i am contented,
blessed with everything one can yearn for.
u held my hand before,
you'll know i am insecured.
you see my wound,
u manage to heal it.
dancing on this driveway,
i cant compete with everyone.
acceptance,
that flaw.
understanding,
this hardness.

someone's playing over the other side,
compelled to distinguish.
my life,
and its addiction.

as i sway across everything,
i'm reluctant to spell 'regret'.
only without the popping of this realization,
i can move forward smoothly.

can my thoughts ever rest,
i wonder.




yc

learn

Now,i know!
it takes only seconds to fall in love,
that ,love, cannot be cultivated through time.
love,is in-explainable.

its weirdness,like a bridge over rowdy river.
its feeling happy, even at its lowest moments.

its something where we request no expectation in return,
its constant giving,and being happy nevertheless.
its fantasy,dreams,giggles and smile.
our memories,
they will never be erased.
at its hardest times,
what you left me is the force of persistance.
i want to be the best for you,all the time.
but i don't expect you to do the same,
its a "no" grumble situation.

i'm sorry...
i succumb to moments of loneliness,
i should have known better.
that the happiness i got from you,
your mini visits, has way surpassed what others can provide me.

this mistake,
is a warning sign to me.
a reflection to shine upon me what i really want.
realization,
the lips i want,the embrace i need.
another precious lesson in life,
learn to differentiate and understand my heart.
so its not about money or car or presents,
but your presence.





yc

rejection

"Sorry,i already have someone in my heart.
My senior whom is in KL, i can't be your girl."

i held a torch for you,
will u light the flame for me?

Never mind,if you cant make yourself lie about your feelings to me.
i guess relationship's like that,
no one always get who they want.
unlike machines,
human cant be controlled or forced.
its better that we're friends,
if we cant go further.
i cant be that special someone,
but i'm someone your heart do hold a place for.
under the department of friends,
we can create more memories together.

i cant afford to fly,
without you by my side.
but i'm speeding,
you're my generator.


yc

mentality

there are so many ways to depict something,
so many views,
differentiation.
its a matter of how we see things,
how each single brain decipher every sentence.
and there's the disparity,
optimism,pessimism.
i'm just so glad i'm still alive,
my breathe keep me going,
or the smiles that i pull.

on a special note,its okay to wake up,
feeling the hangover.
it indicates that i've juz had a fun night,
or, a night drown in sorrows.
the conflicting truth of alcohol.

life's a smile,
effortless.



yc

dab

in a very unique way,
i view.
to never fully recognize understandable,
in what way can a situation...or someone be transparent.
no way~
can i read my contacts like a dictionary,
the unknown triggers care and concern.

i have tried.

freezing within my thoughts,
learning everyday.
what life has to offer me,
what nature has supplied me.




yc

bubbles

missing someone is a very random short-circuit of instance.
like when i come across music,the beat of bass.
smile,will I.
when i come across anything,
i have the urge to link them to you.
that triggers me to giggle in public,
to always fascinate myself with my brain's inefficiency.

we haven't been in love.

what a natural novelist.


yc

exposure

living like a vibrant sun,
i keep my smile always up high.
moments i still get lost,
decisions still bewildered.

i sense my character is coming back,
to this girl,once upon we met.
experiences are life lessons not meant to be taught,
gazing out of the window,
birds and clouds.
the authenticity of this exact emotion,
sparkle.
it is little fulfillment like this that ignite my wonders for you,
cherishing of my surroundings.
the visit of so many angels,
the abrupt gush of blissfulness.

it is interesting how things turn out this way,
summer breeze,warmth of nature.
loving,caring,showering.
abusive bitterness of sugar free mamalade,
creamy coffee.
i'm intoxicated with this feeling,
and for once,i dont know when i'll see tears again.
very positive indeed.
from the lowest,
raise to high above.








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