speaking...

let me tell you...

ever knew i am a lazy girl?
but i love travelling for you, just to look for you.
just to spend time with you.
do you know the effort and trouble i always go through just to touch you,embrace you?
you don't, because to you..its an obligation,its a duty i have to attend to be with you.

ever knew i'm really scared when i drive at night to look for you?
have you ever seen through my brave smile that weren't truthful?

ever knew i tried to withstand your ignore substituting it with ignorance?
i constantly flush my negative thought away,
to create hope for myself.

ever knew i tried to sink into your life?
to find myself floating all the way because you manage to inflate me with excuses.

ever knew i tried to improve,
to find you failing me.

ever knew i am vanishing before you?
because its too tiring to be with you...





yc

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explain to me the sorrow of my expression.
why aren't I in delight over the beauty that surrounds.

humans always thought the brain is the strongest,
but we forgot..without our heart pumping the blood.
our brain is useless.

and so, for this frown.
please dont ask me why,
my heart has pumped me blood of bitter and sour.
scent of flowers makes me shudder,
you used to shower me with this cute nature that i love to sink my nose in.
now, my nerves retaliate to this sweetness...
because it hurts.
becaue of you...
this hurts.

all emotions turn to ash,
whould have been easily blown by the wind.
but the running tears,
dampen this ridiculously painful memory.
i cant discard, i cant...


while i suffer....can you blame my face...
for being expressionless.





yc