the weeper

sometimes,
i really admire.
admire girls that can cry in front of the public,
pouring their sorrows out.
getting embraces that will calm their souls,
speaking of their sadness to whoever is present.
because,i am someone that will never show my weakness to anyone,
i will always feign a smile to calm people.
i cannot tolerate the thought of people viewing me as a weak little girl,
or so,indeed, i am.
although i have tried my best,
but confidence is built upon how people view me.
and not the way i thought i portrayed.
today,i sat opposite the weeping lady that found out her boyfriend cheated on her,
i was speechless.
for i knew nothing could help her,
not even her own tears and words.
but the moment in life,
as i was.
i don't know how long she'll cry,
but i pray she don't drain into my life.
the one year that i almost ruined myself,my faith and my family.

what can i tell her,
i run through my thoughts.
nothing came out,
asking me to relinquish that painful memories isn't promising.
i have forgotten so much in such a short time,
everything is a blur now.
there is no dread.


yc

wind

one can only fly when her burden is gone.
one can only be waken when her dreams vanish.
one can only smile when her heart is released.
one can only see clearly when her eyes are not blinded.
one can only give blessings when her soul is clean.
when can only hope when she sees her future.
one can only make correct decisions when she's...finally...herself.

to the one that makes me realize all this,my dearest sister.
when sadness turns into sand and gone with the wind,
you are my oxygen,moving air that brushes all my woes away.
and stagnant air that accompanies me through rough patches.

i love you lots.
i, always will be your little girl.


yc

convalesce

i'm a silly n selfish girl.
to enable i walk my life head up high,
i hav decided to keep u completely out of my life.
i just notice that i don't have the capacity of acceptance i once thought i had.
and the common mistake of humans,is we always thought we know who we are.
sometimes,all we need is a push from someone,to dictate wat kind of behaviour we possess.
although i'm living my life all over again,but one part of me still belongs to you.
and to make sure i walk with a smile,i hav completely slash off links to your information.
in fact,my actions prove how young a girl i was infront of you.
how i portray my stupidity will always be a regret and annoyance.

to learn the art of relationship again will be tougher than ever,
but to smile and embrace my surrounding,has never been easier.




yc

tingle and awaken

when someone flicks from their long held dream and expectations.
today,shall be the first day of my future.


yc

对的人-:戴爱玲

词曲:作词:姚谦作曲:keith stuart

你问在我心中是否还苦恼
那次受伤否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照我一切都好
一个人不算困扰

爱虽然很美妙却不能为了寂寞又陷了泥沼



爱要耐心等待仔细寻找感觉很重要



宁可空白了手等候一次真心的拥抱



我相信在(这个)世界上一定会遇到



对的人出现(在眼角)
那次流过的泪让我学习到
如何祝福如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要是一种对照
能愿意为了一份爱付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候我就算已经准备好
放手去爱海阔天高
喔...耶...

戴爱玲-爱了就知道

睡的不多
可是梦却好多
有什么紧紧塞在我的胸口
像酸甜的苹果
又像会飞的气球
我常常想你想到泪流
每天不同
这关系太难受
偶尔像情人又像是好朋友
心悬在半空里
面带着微笑忧愁
会安全降落或摔得很疼痛
感情被懂得是一种幸福
等待着被懂得是一种孤独
越来越不能忍受你的暧昧模糊
我要我要我们都一样的投入
不必先祷告爱了就知道
一用了真感情
会留下回忆变成美好
不想管警告爱了就知道
感受所有的过程才重要
身为男人你不要
比我胆子还要小
有感觉就该让我知道

gay

being happy,
is when u bath,u sing.
when u listen to catchy tunes,u dance to it.
when u see your family,u hug them.
when u get depressed,u look into your photo album and smile.
when u're out of money,u look into your wardrobe and play dress up.
and that's how life goes on.
we can always find fun element in everything we do.
playing with words,embracing our views.
realize that being blessed comes in a lot of ways,
every one of us can locate a happy point.
may life be always merry,
so we stay always happy!


yc

in view

the future lies ahead,
i'm clueless of wat it'll be.
but i'm sure its within my grasp if i'm willing to walk the way i believe.
with the people i trust,my life will evolve.
he,will raise me up again.
i believe and will work hard,
hopefully the path is goin to be smooth.



yc

sprightly

cute and catchy am the music in my ears.
fairy tales so soothing,
the recollection of pure love.
a simple kiss,fairy god-mother.
she,once granted me with a gift too,
she gave me memories that change my life.

today,i have finally putted u down.
no longer do i yearn for your return,
no longer do i dread knowing information of u and other girls.
i have just found out u r nothing but strength to me,
a power that has led me through one year of bewilderness.

this morning i woke up,cracked a giggle.
for my stupidity,and the inconvenience i hav inflicted on you because of that.
i teared up the picture of u in my wallet yesterday,
wat a funny little thing to do.
to be awaken n asleep is just a line away,
you,have taught me one of the most painful lessons in life.

This one whole year has been the lowest for me,
i believe in love,and i sank.
i practicaaly lost all my confidence in everything,
all i wanted to do was stay alive so one day i may still see u and u may still dote on me.
no,life shouldn't be like that for me,a 21yr old.
hence,i have decided to step into another phase of my dreary life.
to leave this place i'm so familiar with for 2 full years,
to experience something in my life that will be fresh to me.
a release in my life i never felt better,
to put down whatever i have been carrying.

thanks for wrecking my life,
your actions has indirectly help me assemble my thoughts.
make me understand that there is nothing i need to fear anymore,
i hav mastered the art of crying alone in the night and wake up the next day living good.
all these...have made me an independent girl.
hey,i'm really happy now.
today i wrote all these stuff with no tears,anger,hatred or sadness.
i wrote it so lighthearted that i felt like dancing.

so,all it takes for me to walk away is just a moment in life.
a little tinkle,and i'm back on track.
i believe i will never ever forget this one year that u've passed with me.
i'll forever be inquisitive about how much love i can give.

i feel so good!
and to my dearest beloved,goodbye.
and thank you.
may your future be blessed with everything so much better.





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yc