couraged by sadness

if i were to run away,will u still go after me?
if i were to make a drastic decision of leaving for a year and half, will u feel my heartache?
if i were to return years later blinding myself to you,will i be better?
if life to me was just taking breathes of oxygen,should i leave to look for my future?
if one day someone walks out on you, will my embrace be the first that pops up on your mind?
i'm sorry,i cant be cherishing news of you anymore.
for my selfishness,i chose to leave to faraway land.
live my life alone.save up money,and return years later.
if you're married,i'll hug you to bless you.
if you're still alone, i'll take your hand and hope you can see love.
of course, till then, i'll be sober enough to know i cant force you to love me.
and i am strong enough to chat with you about life and everything.
i make every decision myself, and i hope my decisions don't let me down.
for you,i will be incredibly independent.
thanks for giving me the sadness i need to leave this country where u once hug and shared your kisses with me.
my happiest moment in life.,u...
i just hope these hopes will fly with me and bring me to another level in life,just like the way u do.









yc

温岚-傻瓜

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说
其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭
傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留
傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜



yc

be cognizant of

in a crowded cafeteria,
i had my specs on.
seeing everything ever so clearly,
i brave up the courage to accept the fact.

the fact that when i'm all alone,
its you i think.
its all about you that makes me do what i can't do,
so i write down now that i know my like will be like this.
i will be alone even when there is company around me.


yc

gasp

when people fail to warm my heart the temperature i wanted them to,
i get short-tempered.
i will not wake up to find myself re-freshed,
i will not sleep with ease, even when tiredness is on my shoulder.
i fear for sunset which relays that night has arrived,
i dislike the fact that i couldn't get to sleep like everyone else.

the night exposes my loneliness,
i am naked infront of the fact that i need company next to me.
someone that will send me sms easing me to sleep,
a chat of the day b4 i enter dreamland.
but now, i'm only staring into my mobile blankly.

something i hate to do,but am doing it everyday.







yc

i don't dare

i just notice i doesn't know how to love someone else again.
i have forgotten the feelings to a relationship,
i have forgotten how i should trust a guy with confidence.
i have learn to doubt all my abilities as a girlfriend,
i have learn to enclose everything about myself to myself.

i'm always wondering,suspecting,i wander my thoughts.
will i still get love enough if i never give in much?or i don't give in at all.
actions and words of a man is very brittle,
they cannot sustain addictions.
or my constant suspicion...is deflecting everyone that want to care for me.
i am in so much thoughts,and i don't share them.
every piece of my life i give away,
i lose a stability standing area.
the insecurity is frightening,
the idea of making someone unhappy is scary.

when i daren't take a step forward,
will i still contact love?
the grief that has evolved and engulf my life.







yc