love & its powers

do you know what happens if you're too much in love with someone?
love, this very strong and special feeling.
possess positive power,
that can be too deadly too.

love,
once lost....

can make you suicidal,
you cant take the thought that one day you will live without this person whom you love.
who made up your life.

it'll make you suicidal,
becauese the world will look freaking distorted.
the unfairness you felt...
bitter like poison.

it'll make you suicidal,
for food,something to sustain our life.
becomes repulsive.
where all our appetite melts & evaporates.

it'll make you suicidal,
because you turn into a loser in an instant.
you would find no energy and attention to keep up with your appearance.
for he once love this physicality of you...
but now he turned his back.
what reason or excuse can you fetch,
to look into the mirror.

it'll make you suicidal,
because you're afraid of the radio.
you are constantly tensed with the begining of every song,
worried,
it was that song that you both once sing & hum together.

it'll make you suicidal,
because you cant take the sight of happiness squandered by strangers.
because laughter becomes an annoyance.

it'll make you suicidal,
because your heart aches so much...so intensely...
every breath is so straining,
every blink of the eyes purged with the drowning of tears...

love,
Powerful.
be it positive or negative.
good & evil.

and i have lost the correct grip to handle this grasp properly.





yc