greed

one,
or should i just put it bluntly, me,
must always remember to only entrust men with friendship.

i can achieve dote and love without liability,
i can save the risk of losing a friend.

men detest the heart of mine,
it is a very unreasonable performance.
but i have come to acknowledge it,
and i must really learn not to commit the same mistakes over and over again.

i must constantly reminiscence of those moments,
behind closed doors, when i cried alone.
i must learn to withhold every greediness i have for the affection of men.

why must i harbor this wanderings of greed,

dearest myself....
please remember the pain of your once wounded heart,
please remember the warm saltiness of the tears that slip through the edge of your trembling lips.
please remember how many male friends you have lost for the sake of Love.
please remember of all blessing you may get showered,
love will not be there for you.
please don't let your thoughts run wild again,
please don't get deceived by dreams of your stupidity.

please wake up,
and stop your ridiculous action.

please know....
that i am not fit for any true love in this beautiful world.





yc