Acquiesce

"Someone pops by, someone i haven't met for quite some time.
She commented that i have put on weight, but she claims i look better than before."

My heart and mind starts to fluster.
Looking good is a positive thing,
but putting on weight is not.
In this current society,
being thin and skinny is everything.
You pull off a character,a weirdness that exudes through the sleek eyes of fashion.
There is no fairness in this game,only discipline.
Its a flat to face fact, the uninviting truth of a recognition that is pursued by every individual.

Its a curse,
you must never be fat.

I hate to admit,
but in my eyes, a skinny model pulls off clothes better than curvy ones.
My shallow sight, my deemed hollow wrecked mentality.


I hate to admit,
I have cultivated myself into a yoyo-dieter.
I hate to admit,
sometimes my weight fluctuates unhelathily.
I hate to admit,
i admire people more than myself.
I hate to admit,
i'm not pretty.




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